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November 9: Stealing leaves

November 9, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

Fridays are always a bit bittersweet for me. It’s a day where I can spend the entire day with Twin Crazy and Twin Husky, but my time with Big Bro and Red is short since they have school/pre-school. Plus, there is that 3 hour timespan where we are gypsies, hanging around co-parent’s neighborhood for the drop off.

Today was a great day for me in the old neighborhood. During Red’s drop off, I saw guys blowing leaves to tidy up the neighborhood. Little did they know that I just bought another Tumbler composter and am in the process of building a winter garden. I asked them if I could take the leaves off their hands on my way back. They laughed.

There were so many leaves in the car you could barely make out Big Bro’s bike, and also his entire spot in the car (no carseat, just booster which was easy to get out of the way). Twin Husky was laughing while Twin Crazy slept. When we got home, we had 3 trips from the van to the backyard to spread out our bounty. Of course they both wanted to wear their boots. This will be my project tomorrow – getting the second compost tumbler ready and shredding the leaves with the lawnmower.

Pick ups for Big Bro and Red were fine; we went to the zoo and then went to Home Depot to return a holey hose and buy a new one. “Yes, they are all of my kids”. The kids were great and they helped me pick out a hose that they liked.

I’m looking forward to digging into the earth tomorrow with mole netting, the Tumbler composter project, and also seeing them in the afternoon.

Have a great weekend everyone!

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: composting, Fall, garden, leaves, parenting, working mom, working mother

November 8: Back to my new normal

November 8, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

Thursday is my day with the Twins and early pickups with Big Bro and Red.
Things I loved about today:

Waking up to Twin Crazy and his “Zebra” and having me kiss he Zebra on demand to his feet, ears, nose, etc. etc. etc.
Chocolate Thursday for breakfast, the kids happy, Cocoa sitting on the ottoman, and the fireplace on. Two huge cups of coffee and feeling really good for the drive to Big Bro’s school
The soft rain outside, the smell of the trees, and the smell of someone’s fireplace. I feel like I am in a ski town now
How Big Bro and Twin Husky were doing great together today sharing balls; Big Bro was amazing with him today
Finding Red snuggled on the couch with Cocoa when I thought she was still sleeping in the van from the drive home
Dealing with Twin Husky after he found his rainboots; then Twin Crazy found hers. They were wearing them ALL DAY LONG and loving it
Having a little potty in my van; Twin Crazy needed it on our drive back to our house
Tickling Twin Husky and hearing his laugh
Pulling weeds and feeding the chickens with the Twins; feeling how soft the ground is and how easy the weeds come out with the root; the smell of the ground and the chill in the air and the clovers and green grass growing everywhere
Receiving unsolicited kisses from Twin Husky and then Twin Crazy when I tucked them in for their naps
Seeing Big Bro after school looking REALLY well rested; I had him sleep in as long as I could (7:30) so he got close to 12 hours of sleep last night. I could tell that it did him good today – he was so well behaved, fun, and so good with his brother/sisters
Doing homework with Big Bro after we got home
Playing kickball with a huge blue ball with the kids after getting home; Big Bro laughing and then gagging and then throwing up after the laughter. “I’m glad there were no other kids here”.
Having some neighborhood kids come over and kick the ball around, and then play Legos with the kids; watching Big Bro with his new best friend laughing on the top bunk of his bed as I took pictures of them
Seeing Twin Crazy and Twin Husky dancing non-stop when I turned the radio on in the van
How Big Bro is taking showers now in my room and is completely independent for this type of care
Seeing Red wash Twin Crazy’s hair; she is a wonderful big sister
Seeing Red’s beautiful ringlets of curls spiral around her face after her bath
Hearing Big Bro read the “book” that he created called “The Five Little Pumpkins”. How he created the book after dinner, and then offered to read it to everyone during bedtime routine
Flipping the girls each into bed and hearing their squeals
Having the kids go to sleep peacefully as soon as I tucked them in

The kids were WONDERFUL today; I am HAPPY and relaxed. I’m looking forward to the Fall in this new home with them.

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: Fall, happiness, home, motherhood, parenting, peace, play, rain, simplicity, working mom, working mother

Staying Sane: Waiting is a bitch – be patient

October 28, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

I love my neighborhood. It has a bunch of hard-working families with young kids like mine. We tend to look out for each other. We do care-packages for each other – for example, the family across the street received Twin Crazy’s hand-me down clothes. And I receive hand-me-downs from a family down the street. I’ve offloaded a flat-screen TV wall mount to a new family across the street – it didn’t work on my wall and I could not return it. My next door neighbor gives us food from her garden and even gave us the corn seedlings that grew into the corn (that sucked). This is just how it is here.

Last weekend, I received a care-package of bulbs for flowers that needed to be planted this month. I was told how deep they were to go, and I picked out the flowers that I liked. I’m really not a flower kind of person, but I thought they would actually look pretty good along the front hill of my property. Plus, that would be a great spot for the neighbor who gave them to me to enjoy them herself.

So, I spent at LEAST 2 hours busy on Saturday morning figuring out where to plant them, pulling the mulch back, planting, sweating, planting, sweating, planting, sweating, roasting in the sun, planting, watering. I must say that I felt pretty accomplished afterwards.

Later that day, the kids came over and the neighbors got together and all the kids playing in the street, riding bikes, kicking balls, etc. I got to talking to the husband of the woman who gave me the bulbs. I thanked him and told him I spent all day planting them, very proud of myself.

I asked him “so how long will it take for them to grow?”. I was looking forward to seeing sprouts of green from my labor. I was looking forward to having a front hill that looked GORGEOUS. His reply shocked me. Stunned me. I think I almost shed a tear. “Spring“. Are you F*^(*&^ing kidding me??!??!??!?!?!? SPRING?????! HOW AM I GOING TO EVER BE ABLE TO WAIT THAT LONG FOR SPRING? WHO PLANTS THINGS SO FAR IN ADVANCE ANYWAY? DON’T YOU FORGET THAT THE STUFF IS THERE????????!

I really was not anticipating this answer. I thought maybe 3 – 6 weeks. Certainly not 6 months. OMG. UGGGGH!

I couldn’t help but see the parallels in being a working mother:

set expectations accordingly with your kids/coworkers. This might stop a tantrum/conflict before it happens
don’t expect so much
don’t assume that your own expectations are the same as the other person’s (I need to see quick results, and cannot understand how anyone can enjoy bulbs that sprout six months later…)
have patience. breathe in, breathe out. Repeat. breathe in, breathe out
Laugh it off; see the humor; laugh at yourself
still be thankful for what you receive
growing and nurturing take time; the seeds that you plant now (lessons with your children) may take time to manifest in their personalities. Keep nurturing, teaching, believing even if it takes time to see the impact on the kids
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Have any of you had experiences similar to this? What other learnings can be observed from this or other situations you have encountered?

Thanks for listening; have a great week everyone

– Mama K

Filed Under: Staying Sane Tagged With: calm, gardening, grow, nurture, parenting, patience, plants, working mom, working mother

October 26: VERY busy and happy with the kids

October 26, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

It’s Friday and now I am home alone after dropping off the kids at co-parent’s house. Looking back, I cannot believe how much we did today. I loved it.

Highlights of the Morning:

Twin Crazy was sick the night before with a high fever so I brought her into my room. However, when I woke up this morning, not only did I have her in my bed, but I also had her twin laying across me as a pillow. He usually wakes up earlier than the rest, but for some reason I think he came over in the middle of the night. Strange. I woke up to Red asking me to get Cocoa. Climbing back in my bed I was saying to everyone that I will need to go out and get a bigger bed. How am I going to fit me, 4 kids (older and bigger over time), a guinea pig and possibly a dog in my Full bed??!?!?!? No way. We were all laughing.
Breakfast was touch and go today. Red requested pancakes (I made home-made pancakes last Friday) but I tricked her and pulled some out from the freezer. She tried to eat them but noticed the difference immediately and was completely pissed off at me. She sulked for most of the breakfast, until the end, when she caved out of hunger and ate what was given to her. Then she was all smiles.
It was a nice ride dropping off Big Bro and Red. The sun was shining. I was feeling great. Drop offs were uneventful. Except that Red was happy (I brought Twin Crazy and Twin Husky with me). I think bringing in the twins makes a difference for her during drop offs.
On the way home the Twins were talking about having grapes. There was traffic. They fell asleep.
Once we got back we had our grapes and then our activity. I loved it. We worked together in the back yard. We were raking leaves, transporting leaves, picking “good” leaves from the weeds/sticks and putting them in our tumbler composter, then gathering more leaves around the back yard. Twin Husky was TOTALLY into it. He loves the outdoors. I think this will be “our thing” together. He is very much a wanderer; a seeker; he wandered off to see the chickens and he loves working in the yard. I couldn’t tear him away from his little wheel barrel. I think this garden that I want to build will be special for me and him alike. Twin Crazy on the other hand had trouble walking up the hill, trouble raking leaves, and wanted to ride her tricycle down on the patio. To each her own. It’s just not her thing. I’m OK with that.
After that hard work we had lunch and then naps. I even took a nap as well.

Highlights of the Afternoon:

My phone alarm rang at 1:50 PM. I jumped out of bed and gathered extra clothes, 4 water bottles, 3 fans (see Halloween gifts from Nana from yesterday), and snacks to last 4 kids and one tired Mommy for 3 hours. I scooped up the kids and told them to go back to sleep on the ride. They did.
Pick up for Big Bro was great. I got a chance to see their gardening project, with above-ground planting beds made out of wood. I was totally impressed. I asked them how they made it and if they have plans. The teacher said that boy-scouts made it for her. A parent from Big Bro’s class asked me if I even have ROOM for a planter like that…. I said yes, we are divorced now… I live in [XXX] and have 1/2 acre of property and am starting a garden. She grew up in that town. She knows that I can grow things in the summer and in the winter. She said she was jealous. She does not have space for such a planter at her house. I was beaming.
We picked up Red. She is adorable. Her smile lights up the room and my heart. She put away her things and ran to me. She held my hand tight as we ran to the van together.
Once we were all together I took out the snacks and drove to our first destination: the airplane museum. There is a part of the museum where you do not have to pay anything to enjoy. So we stayed outside for free, and the kids had fun climbing into the airplanes and pretending that they were air traffic control. Big Bro stole my phone camera and took some pictures of things that were important to him, like his hurt finger with a band-aide on it. I read about the planes and gave the kids their snacks. The owner came out and I explained my story, about living paycheck to paycheck and being divorced with four kids. He gave me his card and told me to call in advance if I ever wanted to bring the kids inside. He was very sweet. We used the restroom and there was a water cooler outside with cone-paper cups. The kids went crazy over this and I just couldn’t believe the joy and wonder that can be brought to a child without paying for anything. It really is the simple things in life.
After the airplane museum we went to buy Red her shoes. Her old sneakers were embarrassing. She even mentioned that people in her class have been telling her to get new shoes. I was appalled. We went to Payless and even Big Bro was picking out some choices for her from sizes 11 and 11 1/2. He was great. They all knew that the only thing on the list was Red’s shoes. So all in all they were very well behaved. Except for Twin Husky. He found a pair of blue rain boots that he fell in love with and was totally upset when I told him that they weren’t on the list. We paid for Red’s sneakers and off we went.
Our next stop was a cove where you can see tide-pools, lots of birds, and huge rocks with sea-weed. The kids had a great time. Big Bro, Red, and Twin Husky kept scrambling up rocks, Big Bro and Red adventured out towards the bay and collected treasure (shells), Twin Crazy collected her treasure of rocks, and Twin Husky was so adventurous. At one point he decided to take off his socks and shoes and start wading in some of the tide pools. I was not thrilled with this but I loved his sense of adventure and he was safe. I didn’t care if his pants got wet. The kids were great when I said it was time to go. I love giving them these kinds of experiences. And it didn’t cost me a thing.
Drop off was fine. I will see them tomorrow at 4 PM.

After dropping them off I went food shopping to prepare for next week. I will have more time with them since co-parent will be traveling for work. I only buy things that are fresh veggies / fruits, and other things on sale. I do not buy anything (besides fresh fruits / veggies) if it is full price. I just can’t these days. There was a snag at the register that shorted me $2 and I am not proud to say that I waited for another transaction to get my $2 back. That will pay for 2 days of parking next week at my train station. I am living paycheck to paycheck these days, but still probably the happiest that I’ve ever been nonetheless. I am making it on my own. As a single mother of four kids, working part-time, in a god-awful expensive part of the country. I have my own, beautiful (small) home with lots of land for me and these kids. And I am making it.

Tonight I will need to do some work related to the divorce. I cannot wait for this to be finalized and have this leech off of my back. I was carrying him for too long in the past and he is still sucking whatever he can out of me and I need to rid myself of him legally and financially. That is my priority now that my big meetings for work have passed.

Have a great weekend everyone –

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: adventure, airplane, divorce, fun, gardening, home, money, nature, parenting, part-time, paycheck to paycheck, sneakers, working mom, working mother

October 25: Rain, hot, cold

October 25, 2012 by Mama K 1 Comment

It is the end of a Thursday, one that I shared with my kids. I love working part-time. Twin Crazy had a fever last night so we did not sleep well. I was excited since I used my heating system in the house for the very first time. It is very cool. Programmable for different sections of the day. I am new to all of this. I love owning this home and being able to set the heat at whatever temperature I feel is appropriate for the kids and me.

Highlights of the Morning:

Nutella “Chocolate Thursday”. The kids were pumped. Of course Twin Husky and Twin Crazy needed to spread the chocolate by themselves.
It was raining outside. It feels like fall. Foggy, raining. My grass is turning brown to green.
On the ride we saw a huge amount of pigeons on the electrical lines. I don’t think we’ve ever seen so many. Big Bro said that they need to put up more lines so that the birds could have more room for their “meeting”. Twin Husky called it a “party”. We made it in time for Big Bro’s drop off. Drop off for Red went much better this week. I think it is easier for her when Twin Crazy and Twin Husky are with us during the drop off. Afterwards, Twin Crazy and Twin Husky were playing with chairs and kitchen sets and climbing structures at school. It was hard to get them out of there. Twin Crazy was talking about how her “vagina hurts” in front of everyone which made me laugh and also indicated to me that she needed to take a bath.
On the ride back Twin Crazy and Twin Husky were singing “Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes”. I love that they are in a proper daycare environment where they are learning these things. Twin Husky was fully potty trained his first week of being there.
I took them to the library in my neighborhood so we could return some borrowed DVDs. We got there too early so we talked about flowers, looked at worms, and they balanced on low walls around the bushes and flowers and had a great time. Once the library opened, we went in and they each returned one of the DVDs with the automatic return center, where they put the book/DVD in and it scans the bar-code. They loved it.
We went back to my place and took baths. I pulled out “new” (hand me downs from a neighbor) bath toys that the kids loved. A watering can, Dora and Boots, pots with spouts. Twin Husky needs to shampoo his own hair by himself. Afterwards he wanted to get dressed in a bathing suit top and a bathing suit bottom since they are very soft and silky.
Lunch and naps!
While the kids took naps, I had a conference call and sent out some emails to prospective clients.

Highlights of the Rest of the Day:

I swept the kids up and drove in to pick up Big Bro and Red. It was hot outside. We were early so Twin Crazy and Twin Husky had fun playing in the playground while we waited. They both liked the swings. Twin Husky liked the play structure and the structure where you throw a ball in… but we didn’t have a ball with us so he was throwing his Tiger. It was very, very cute.
Twin Crazy was not feeling well by this point and felt feverish to me – and it was hot outside in general so I’m sure she felt like crap. She was very cranky. We grabbed Big Bro and fled to Red. Pick up was fast since Twin Crazy was feverish. I told Red that I was going to buy her shoes today, but asked her if it was OK if we did that tomorrow since Twin Crazy was sick and needed medicine. She was agreeable.
When we got home Big Bro was sleeping in the back seat. I gave Twin Crazy medicine. It was cold outside. I turned the fireplace on. Red and Twin Husky were playing with LeapPads. I was holding Twin Crazy to comfort her and check her fever. She felt good in my arms.
Big Bro woke up; the medicine kicked in and Twin Crazy was happy. The kids opened up a care package from my mom with Halloween cards, “fans” with candy in the arms, and two baking sets with haunted house brownies and skull cupcakes with brains. We will do these on Sunday.
Red and Twin Crazy were busy with scissors and cutting out pictures out of magazines.
Dinner was fast and good.
After dinner, we colored together while I also did laundry.

I read to Twin Crazy and Twin Husky and put them to bed. Then Red, solo. And then Big Bro. I’m not sure if they like reading all of them together (then they get to hear 4 books) or if they like the one-on-one time. I think it depends on their mood. I just need to remain flexible with them.

I loved today. It was a great way to spend my time after the intensity from work at the beginning of the week.

Til tomorrow –

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: bathtime, coloring, home, library, parenting, part-time work, playground, working mom, working mother

October 24: A recap of the last few days

October 24, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

I came home tonight after leading and facilitating a series of meetings for one of the forums that I manage for my company – I left on Monday AM and returned at 7 PM Wednesday night – picking up the kids from co-parent’s on the way from the airport and to my house. They are in bed now and I missed them so much;
Highlights of the past few days:

Eating a big breakfast at the airport; sleeping on the plane the entire way cross-country.
Seeing the GORGEOUS leaves turning colors during my drive from the airport. Lots of yellows and bright reds. I attempted to take a picture from the taxi but the pictures does the scene absolutely no justice whatsoever.
Getting assigned to a room that did not exist and getting lost on the floor (not) finding it. Getting set up in my real room – a suite. Lots of chairs and rooms and space for me to lose my things.
FABULOUS dinner and drinks with clients on Monday night. I joked with my clients about my “garden” and the “corn” that we grew which was terrible; they were laughing with (at) me.
First day of meetings was amazing. I presented data and analyses to the group and it went very well. The group overall was very engaged the entire day and there was a lot of interaction and discussion – that is how I know that the meeting is going well.
ANOTHER FABULOUS DINNER WHERE I DRANK TOO MUCH WINE – THE FOOD WAS AMAZING AND I HUGGED THE CHEF. Afterwards, I took out prospective members to some Irish bars and we had way too much fun.
Next day of meetings went great. I lead the day solo and facilitated the end of the meeting getting their ideas on subject matter and topics for the next meeting in six months. We’ll be heading to Miami in the Spring!
Took a town car to the airport.
Dunkin’ Donuts coffee. Too good to be true. I miss that.
I had plenty of time – had some lunch/wine, and worked on sales for the other forum I manage. I sold three new memberships today and will work on others through the rest of the week where I can.
Plane ride back was fine; I slept and also listened to a lot of music.

Getting the Kids:

AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME
They ran to me. Red jumped in my lap. Twin Husky was jumping up and down saying “Mommy Mommy Mommy”. Twin Crazy came out laughing and hugging and smiling. Big Bro came out and was gathering his things. I guess he’s past the hugging stage of his life. 😦
Twin Husky had on new sneakers and he was showing me how they work and light up when he slams his foot down. They are Buzz Lightyear sneakers. Twin Crazy then started saying how she can do that too and had to show me. Then Red too. So I had 3 kids around me stomping their feet and making their shoes light up. It was like fireworks.
I learned that Twin Crazy has been sick the past 3 days – up at night with high fevers and puking. Great.
On the ride back, Big Bro and Red were playing games with their LeapPads together; laughing. Twin Crazy and Twin Husky were singing together and laughing. I was quiet and just let them entertain themselves. I wanted to hear them in their natural states without forcing conversation. I loved the ride home.
We quickly did bedtime routine and read books, scratched backs. Twin Crazy complained a bit that she was cold (slight fever) so I gave her medicine. I hope she sleeps through the night. I need the sleep and am exhausted from the day and also time difference.

I had an amazing 3 days. Work is going so well for me and I’m really enjoying what I do. I have fun with it during the meetings and afterwards. I like bringing on new clients/members. I like the entertaining aspect and making sure that everyone is happy. It is fun and easy work for me. Coming home to the kids was also amazing. Their hugs, their excitement, their laughter. All of us sitting together on the couch with the fireplace on reading books together and laughing and talking about the books. It was a great moment for me.

Til tomorrow –

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: clients, conferences, divorce, dunkin donuts, irish bars, parenting, travel, working mom, working mother

Staying Sane: More new friends

October 21, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

Saturday is a day that I get to wake up late and enjoy a day getting things done while I wait for the kids. They are with co-parent until I see them at 4 PM. This Saturday AM I spent my time cleaning up my front yard and planting about 50 bulbs for the Spring – but that is a story for another time.

During this planting, I had the opportunity to meet some kids who were walking their dog Hershey. They usually don’t walk this way in front of my house, but they were on this day because their dog is new to their family. Rescued from a dog pound 2 days before he was about to be put to “rest”.

I learned that they were the neighbors at the end of the street whom I did not yet meet. Two boys, ages 11, 7, and a girl, age 6. I had fun with Hershey and talking with them. I guess I don’t mind talking to kids when I am solo since it is in my nature now to talk to kids since I have so many. Anyway, they asked about my kids and they asked why they weren’t around until 4 PM. I explained that they were with their Dad and that they have “two houses” and that they spend time with me, and they spend time with their dad. How they have two rooms, two sets of books, two sets of toys, etc. (my normal explanation about the separation). Usually this story works out well since I end with “two sets of toys”. But this was the first time I was talking with a sort-of older kid – and that’s when the 11-year old told his siblings “yeah she’s talking about Divorce. When things don’t work out.”…..

Anyway, I told them that the kids would be at my house at 4 PM and ready to ride bikes. So for them to come back. They walked off with their dog and I continued with my yard.

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At 4:02, the new kids came back, with their bikes. They were waiting to meet my kids. The van pulled up. My kids came out and met the “new kids” (it’s so ironic since the “new kids” have actually lived on that block all of their lives, and WE are the family of the “new kids”). Big Bro got out immediately and started riding. Red was a little bit apprehensive, since these were older kids, who ride fast. Twin Crazy and Twin Husky were anxious to get their bikes and get going! Twin Husky helped me put out the traffic cones in the street. The kids next door were calling out through the window that they were coming out too. The kids across the street were getting their bikes out and helmets on. The boys up the hill were coming down with their bikes with their mom who had a margarita in a cup. And then the 6-year old twins from way up the hill were seen to be coming down with their bikes and their shark and fish helmets. The fun began…

Kids on bikes. Kids running from house to house. Kids on the tree swing next door in the front yard. Big Bro coming out with some balls to kick in the street. Big Bro wanting a snack so I went in and got Ritz Crackers and asked him to bring out the entire box for everyone to share. I asked him to ask everyone if they wanted any… and he did – such a good host and such a “giver”. The neighbors congregated on my stoop. Some had never met since there are new folks here. I met the parents from the corner house. Some disappeared and came back with bottles of wine. Boys were running from house to house. Red just wanted to be an acrobat on me. Twins were riding bikes. Big Bro hit it off with the “new kid” who is 7. Everyone looking out for cars and having the kids pull over when one would drive by, very slowly, just looking at all of the people/kids in the street and maneuvering through the “kids at play” signs and my traffic cones with flags.

As far as we know, we have 21 children ages 11 and under on this block. And we had 19 of them out this past Saturday night with their parents congregated on the stoop of my house. The only ones that I have not yet met are a family with 2-year old twins (more twins!!) who are hosting a Halloween party for everyone on Halloween night.

All kids were going non-stop – and then the sun started to go down and families started to separate. I wound up with some stragglers at my place as I cooked dinner. I didn’t mind.

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The next day, Sunday, Big Bro went over to “the new kids'” house to play wall-ball. And then after lunch I had 4 extra neighborhood kids in my house along with the dog, Hershey. In the late afternoon, I took my kids back to co-parent’s house. And then when I was alone, there was a knock on the door and it was the “new” kids again, boy aged 7 and girl aged 6, and Hershey. Again it was hard for them I guess to understand that even though I was there, my kids were not. They are only at this house some of the time. But now at least they know that we live in this house and that the four kids are here every Saturday starting at 4 PM.

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I love how Big Bro just hit it off with these new kids – especially how in the past he was so shy. I love how welcoming in general children are. I love how they see fun in each other and how quickly the activities can change when so many kids are getting together. I remember nights like this as a kid. I am happy that I can give these experiences with my kids now and that we, together, get a chance to explore these new beginnings together.

Have a great week everyone –

– Mama K

Filed Under: Staying Sane Tagged With: community, divorce, neighborhood kids, new neighbors, parenting, working mom, working mother

October 19: A good friday

October 19, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

Today was unusual. Big Bro did not have school. So we all had a “home” day at my home and LOVED it.

Highlights:

Woke up to Twin Husky (as usual) and cuddled in bed. Red came in with Cocoa (guinea pig).
Breakfast included the fireplace, oatmeal, home-made pancakes, and bread and butter (their new favorite).
Bikes outside; kids were in a great mood. Halloween costumes were on again. I showered while they had fun.
We went to Target to return some lightbulbs and get the right size. They loved the escalator ride. I loved that they know about the “list” and that they didn’t even waver towards any toys or ANYTHING else since it was not on our “list”. We were in and out in 5 minutes. On the escalator down, Twin Crazy had a spill and hurt her knee which fouled things up. Red was left up top, scared, but I asked her to hold tight and I’ll come back for her. Big Bro stayed with Twin Husky at the bottom and I carried Twin Crazy up the escalator again and we rescued Red. The girls were now laughing.
We went to the library afterwards. The kids picked out books almost immediately and 2 DVDs too; Big Bro checked out the books by himself with the bar-code reader. Red decided she wanted to be “old school” and go to the librarian to check out her books.
We went to the playground afterwards and the kids had fun climbing on trains, swinging, going down slides, and scaling structures.
We had a great lunch;
Twins were great taking their naps. Big Bro watched a Tinkerbell DVD while Red and I colored.
We had a delivery from Amazon – a guinea-pig play pen. I think she likes it. The kids do at least.
There was another delivery – the Buzz Lightyear t-shirt for Twin Husky to go with his blow-up wings. He was psyched.
Big Bro went over to a neighbor’s house to play Legos.
The rest of us were at home riding bikes, sweeping leaves, and decorating the house for Halloween.
Before you knew it, it was time for me to take them to co-parent’s. It turned dark and foggy on the way. As did my mood. So typical.

I spent other times during the day on email and on the phone with my office. A big meeting is next week that I will be leading; the heavy lifting all has been done. Now it’s just getting there, being smart, connecting with my clients, trying to “sell” membership to two different guest organizations, and facilitating 1 1/2 days of meetings and speakers. I am not concerned at all for this – I’m actually looking forward to it.

After dropping off the kids I needed to sit in the ferry parking lot with the car (and heat) on and cry. There are so many things about all of this that are so unfair. After I let it out I got back on the road. I felt much better as soon as I got on the highway and got closer to my house. I pulled up to the house and saw the decorations hanging from our trees and I couldn’t help but smile. I love it here. I felt so much better as soon as I pulled up the driveway. I came inside with a fresh perspective. I made a great dinner of sauteed brussell sprouts, baby kale, leftover rice, and some Guinness poured in. It was amazing. And drank the rest of the Guinness. Yes, feeling much better now. So much better in my own space, with my own things, and with memories of each of my kids with so much joy here.

I can not wait until this divorce is finalized. Being entwined with him is damaging. I know that there will be better days for me ahead. This is a bump in the road but hopefully this bump will not last for long.

Have a great weekend everyone –

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: conference planning, divorce, flex-time work, happiness, pain, parenting, part-time work, public speaking, working mom, working mother

October 18: Are you kidding me??!?!?

October 18, 2012 by Mama K 1 Comment

It was a reasonably good Thursday because of the kids; but the day sucked due to the divorce. I need to be done with this already – I am soooo over it.

Highlights of the Day:

I of course woke up to Twin Husky climbing into my bed. He is like a living alarm-clock. His routine is so predictable.
Chocolate Thursday! Kids were helping themselves and spreading their own Nutella on their tortillas. We were running a bit late.
Out of the driveway I ran over my side lawn and got stuck. One neighbor and one stranger walking down the street helped to push me out. It was pretty funny when my bumper almost got pulled off of my car. It’s just a piece of metal.
Drop off for Big Bro was fine; Drop off for Red was TERRIBLE. Lots of hugs, clinging to legs, tears. This happens every Thursday now. I hate it.
I took Twin Crazy and Twin Husky to a science museum in a closeby neighborhood. They had a great time playing with balls/air, floating things/air, tumbling, riding bikes with square wheels, doing puppet shows, etc. etc. etc. They really had a great time as did I.

It was an early pick up day for Big Bro from school. So at 12:30 we picked him up, and then Red. We headed back to my place and had a great time.

We painted fingernails.
Got the mail, watered the plants front and back
Dressed in Halloween costumes
Had a smoothie snack outside on the steps
Twins took a bath, I gave Twin Husky a haircut (he looks very handsome)
Had some neighborhood kids over to play
Played with Cocoa
Ate a fast dinner outside with our new patio furniture
Cleaned up, read books, scratched backs, tickled and hugged and said lots of “I love you”s.

In between all of this were emails and phone calls/ conference calls for work. Both related to the big meeting next week, and a new client project that we will likely bid on. It was great from a work perspective even though it was my day off.

In between all of this also were emails and phone calls from co-parent related to the divorce. He wants to be reimbursed for his out of pocket healthcare expenses – is still on my health plan. Are you kidding me?????? I need to be rid of this. I want to move forward but he keeps holding me back. I can not wait to be free of this. I have never met such a cheap man before in my life. He would fight you for a roasting pan, believe me, he is fighting me for ours and the majority of our wedding gifts.

Ok, now that’s off my chest, I breathe deep and let it pass. I am in my own home now. And my children are sleeping happily in their rooms. They ate well tonight. They had two different houses of neighborhood friends come over. They are clean. They were playing with each other and the girls were laughing and playing tonight like best friends. I received a TON of hugs from them and lots of good conversation with each of them tonight. I look at them in their eyes when they talk to me and they are able to finish their sentences and thoughts with me and get a reaction from me. I drank good, cheap wine tonight. I have a guinea-pig who is running around her cage right now and who kisses Red non-stop and obviously loves Red the best. The crickets are chirping. And work is going well. So I really can’t complain. I’m moving forward and am ready for what is ahead and I am hopeful that it will be wonderful and worth the journey.

Til tomorrow –

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: divorce, flex-time work, halloween, home, neighborhood, parenting, part-time work, sisters, working mom, working mother

October 12: 132 miles

October 12, 2012 by Mama K Leave a Comment

Friday! This day of the week is always a bit difficult for me and winds up in fights with Big Bro with me leaving angry at him, yet trying to resolve things before I leave. This Friday was no exception…
Highlights of the Morning:

Kids were up early and Red of course wanted to start the day with Cocoa the guinea-pig. So I had 3 kids and a guinea-pig in my bed as I woke up, which was perfectly fine with me.
Breakfast was smooth sailing, except for the fact that Red requested pancakes. I’ve stopped buying the instant stuff so there I was making home-made pancakes on Friday morning (a school day) with Big Bro making butter and bread and Twin Crazy wanting to be close to me since her “nose was sick”. As you could imagine with four kids and trying to get out the door, there were several batches of pancakes that were forgotten on the stove and burnt to a crisp. Red thought this was particularly funny.
I sent out some work emails as I was getting stuff ready for the morning.
It was a normal routine with the kids and getting out the door – kids were great. Got dressed, got shoes on, out the door and to the car quickly. We were actually VERY early today.
It looked like rain. In fact there was a little bit of rain when we went outside. The kids were excited by this. They wanted to show me the drops and also how the ground looked wet. It was cold. I got all the kids in the car and bundled them up with blankets and jackets as blankets. They were ready and eager to go.
We talked about the rain, the fog, the tunnel. We got to the intersection with all of the pigeons and there were tons on the electrical lines again. Big Bro said that it looked like they were having a “meeting”. That just cracked me up.
Red was talking about bridges and we actually drive over two small bridges on our way to their school/pre-school. So we started talking about the kinds of bridges there are and how the one bridge we were going on sometimes goes up to let big boats and sailboats by.
Twin Crazy was busy “reading” and making up stories with her notebook.
Drop offs were great.

Highlights of the Rest of the Day:

Twin Crazy, Twin Husky, and I made it back and it was cold. I turned the fireplace on. The kids were hungry again so I made them oatmeal.
They were busy playing and coloring as I was cleaning up a bit. Twin Crazy wanted to wear her Halloween costume which essentially is an Asian-looking dress that is pink and shiny. She looked gorgeous in it.
We then went to Target to get toilet paper in bulk (I still can’t believe my Costco card got cancelled by my in-laws while I’m still paying for their son’s health insurance) and some other needed items. I got some stuff in bulk on sale like vitamins, cold medicine, band-aids. The kids were great and then started to get cranky so I fled. They loved the escalator and were squealing on their way up and on their way down.
At home we ate a good lunch – left overs from last night. I microwaved a frozen fish fillet and after 2 minutes the thing started exploding all over my microwave. The lunch was good but I spent way too much time cleaning up the microwave for fear of fish stench.
We received a new guinea-pig cage that I ordered through Amazon. I was excited to give Cocoa some more space in a new cage.
Naptime!
Woke up and hauled ass to pick up Red and Big Bro. Got Red quickly, got Big Bro, and then DROVE BACK TO MY HOUSE instead of staying local before dropping the kids off at co-parents. The past few Fridays have just been tough for us. I pack like we are pack of gypsies and we sometimes have fun things to do but most times the kids just wind up fighting and I wind up mad at one/more of them. And it was rainy/cold today so I grabbed all of them and headed back to my place for an extra 2 hours before dropping them off.
We put together the guinea-pig cage and watched her explore her new surroundings. It is big. I have no idea where we are going to put it. But I think she is happy. I think.
I read to Twin Crazy and Twin Husky while Big Bro and Red disappeared playing Legos. Twin Husky wanted to hold the book like a “teacher” with the book facing me and Twin Crazy while I was reading. I read several books this way. One was a counting book and he seriously knows all of his numbers, the way they look, how to count…. it is amazing how they are twins and he is so skilled at numbers and she is so skilled at communication/reading/storytelling. Twins are amazing.
We had pudding as an afternoon snack.
Big Bro and Red then went to play at a neighbor’s house… when I went to go get them they were not there and at a DIFFERENT neighbors house. I like the fact that they have lots of friends and everything, but MAN they were in TROUBLE when I got them. I was so angry with them. At least tell me where you are! Have the mommy/daddy send me a message! I need to know where you kids are!!! Ugggh.
The drive home was very quiet as a result. Except for me talking about it from time to time and letting them know that they should come and tell me where they are going to be if their plans change, or tell the parents to send me a message. Red understood. Big Bro was making excuses.
As we were waiting for co-parent to come home, I wanted Red and Big Bro to be sure they knew that I still loved them even though I was mad at them. Red thought that this whole concept was “funny”. How can you love and be mad at the same time? But she took my hugs with smiles. Big Bro was a bit embarrassed by all of it. Why can’t I have a Friday where I leave the kids without frustration?
I drove back home in silence and did not even put the radio on. I felt in a funk.

So today I did SIX trips between my house and co-parent’s house. That’s 132 miles. But there was lots of conversation on the way, and I did not have to pack up like a gypsy and try to occupy the kids with activities. We had a day that was generally relaxing but also stressful. The tension of independence and trying to teach the kids good judgment was put to the test today. And the emotions of having to leave the kids on a down note was saddening to me.

I arrived to a package of bulbs from a neighbor for flowering plants. That is how this neighborhood is. The folks here are incredibly giving. This will be my activity for tomorrow.

I slept for 2 hours on the couch, in front of the fireplace and watching Cocoa’s huge cage. I woke up to a dinner of a bagel, oven-crisped kale, fist-fulls of Life cereal, a cheese stick, and 1/2 bottle of white $2 Chuck. Now I’m feeling much better.

Have a great weekend everyone

– Mama K

Filed Under: Daily Journal Tagged With: divorce, drive, guinea pig, parenting, pet, Target, twins, working mom, working mother

November 9: Stealing leaves

November 8: Back to my new normal

Staying Sane: Waiting is a bitch – be patient

October 26: VERY busy and happy with the kids

October 25: Rain, hot, cold

October 24: A recap of the last few days

Staying Sane: More new friends

October 19: A good friday

October 18: Are you kidding me??!?!?

October 12: 132 miles

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